“But are also subject to incredible cultural baggage.”īut why are all these straight men vying to take a swim in the rainbow pool? “I think homosexual desire and homosexual contact are staples of the human experience,” professor Jane Ward, University of California, Riverside, recently told me. And during all of this, these men, these straight men who were always my bully growing up or even in college classrooms, maintained their straightness while I was constantly reminded of how they despised my gayness even as I entertained their episodic gay-interests.Īnd I am not alone in being the object of ambivalent, conflicted desire by men who identify as straight. And over time – especially once I got to my very white college – the grabs from straight men became caressing or kissing or, for the bold, sex.
